heLpLess thinKing...

so my ReLatives weRe heRe about a weeK ago...and i had so much Fun!! so much that i've been missin them pRobabLy way moRe than a peRson shouLd. LiKe i can't be as happy as the way i used to be beFoRe they weRe heRe. aLL i Keep thinKing about is how much Fun we had and I neveR wanted it to end! now they'Re gone and i'm stiLL a wRecK. so i'm tRying not to thinK oF them too oFten because that'LL just Remind me oF the Fact that they'Re not heRe and bRing me down moRe...and just yesteRday, i supRise-texted an oLd FRiend by wishing heR a happy 21st biRthday...she said she'LL caLL me when she gets oFF woRK...i wasn't LiKe waiting by the phone eveRy second...cuz i was out with my FamiLy but iF she did caLL i'd picK up Right away...but she neveR caLLed...so i texted heR bacK saying what i wanted to say...it wouLd've been betteR iF i taLKed to heR in peRson...but oh weLL she must've had an awesome paRty...that's why she FoRgot...undeRstandabLe..its heR day...why wouLd she RemembeR someone she neveR taLks to on a daiLy basis...do u thinK that's a good oR bad thing: caRing too much about the peopLe who pRobabLy don't thinK about you on a daiLy basis?

and when i'm boRed...i maKe pictuRes ReLating to things that Remind me oF that weeK. LiKe this one...

i've gotta get these peopLe oFF my mind so that i can be bacK to my oLd seLF! its not a compLete bad thing tho...i don't RegRet seeing them again aFteR so Long...its just i don't wanna hoLd on to them so haRd that its taKing away FRom the things i shouLd be doing...idk its a compLicated FeeLing...i guess what i'm tRying to say is that i need to just miss them LiKe a noRmaL peRson shouLd...LiKe missin them aLot but

tRy to stiLL be happy without them...