thoughts in a minute...

ok so i just had an awesome day with my bf...we spent the whole day together bc im leaving on a family vacay for two weeks...i know ill be back but i still miss him...ohh i get to bring my care bear! yay...im really hungry...i miss my cousins still...i just got done talking to them...one of em had a bad day..."so u had a bad day...u taking one down...u sing a sad song just to turn it around..." hehe ok stop singing...i tried my best to make her smiLe again..hopefully i did...omg stupid popups!...ok well cant sleep too busy watching Bones...omFrigginG there was this creep-creepy episode that left me shaking in my hello kitty slippers lol i am still hungry even tho i had an awesome dinner...yay! i love this day...sleep...::sigh::...sounds good...

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heLpLess thinKing...

so my ReLatives weRe heRe about a weeK ago...and i had so much Fun!! so much that i've been missin them pRobabLy way moRe than a peRson shouLd. LiKe i can't be as happy as the way i used to be beFoRe they weRe heRe. aLL i Keep thinKing about is how much Fun we had and I neveR wanted it to end! now they'Re gone and i'm stiLL a wRecK. so i'm tRying not to thinK oF them too oFten because that'LL just Remind me oF the Fact that they'Re not heRe and bRing me down moRe...and just yesteRday, i supRise-texted an oLd FRiend by wishing heR a happy 21st biRthday...she said she'LL caLL me when she gets oFF woRK...i wasn't LiKe waiting by the phone eveRy second...cuz i was out with my FamiLy but iF she did caLL i'd picK up Right away...but she neveR caLLed...so i texted heR bacK saying what i wanted to say...it wouLd've been betteR iF i taLKed to heR in peRson...but oh weLL she must've had an awesome paRty...that's why she FoRgot...undeRstandabLe..its heR day...why wouLd she RemembeR someone she neveR taLks to on a daiLy basis...do u thinK that's a good oR bad thing: caRing too much about the peopLe who pRobabLy don't thinK about you on a daiLy basis?

and when i'm boRed...i maKe pictuRes ReLating to things that Remind me oF that weeK. LiKe this one...

i've gotta get these peopLe oFF my mind so that i can be bacK to my oLd seLF! its not a compLete bad thing tho...i don't RegRet seeing them again aFteR so Long...its just i don't wanna hoLd on to them so haRd that its taKing away FRom the things i shouLd be doing...idk its a compLicated FeeLing...i guess what i'm tRying to say is that i need to just miss them LiKe a noRmaL peRson shouLd...LiKe missin them aLot but

tRy to stiLL be happy without them...

...can't sLeep...

so its one in the moRning and i cant sLeep. i heard LiKe this Loud noise...i thought it was my moms tv...so i Listened to my ipod whiLe i sLept. it didn't heLp at aLL. so i decided to go and Find out what that noise was...tuRns out the noise was the Radio tuRning itseLF on. it Kinda scaRed me so now im awaKe. so i got on the computeR to Kinda bRowse thRu some sites and say hi to my cousins in caLi. i can't sLeep...hope i do because i got aLot of cRap to do tomoRo....not to mention aLL the things that aRe going thRu my head...its just Keeping me awaKe...idK....i ReaLLy have to get some sLeep

taKe caRe yaLL.

random thinking...

i ReaLLy don't know what to do...im caught in the middLe of missing my cousins and tRying to Live without them....i've done it foR about 7 yeaRs now...but something is standing in the way of me tRying to move on....i think its the fact that i actuaLLy got to know them and taLk to them and yes i beLieve i'm cLoseR to them now. I've said soRRy aLmost eveRytime about the gameboy i stoLe (( Laughing )) and they said they've "foRgotten" about it...idk i hope so...now im hoping they'Re not annoyed by me...the kind of peRson i am...and the kind i wiLL aLways bee is the one who Loves eveRyone i caRe deepLy about...famiLy and fRiends...some aRe one in the same...but this chick doesn't foRget easiLy so idk how i can go back to the way it was...

the soundtRack of my Life...

inspiRed by this video: The Soundtrack of my Life

heRe's what u do --
1. open your library (iTunes, winamp, media player, iPod)
2. put it on shuffle & press play
3. for every question, type the song that's playing. new question-- press the next button
4. don't lie and try to pretend you're cool

this is mine
paRt whateva !! i feRget
Opening credits?: HaLLeLujah - paRamoRe

Waking up?: youR faith in me - jessica simpson

FiRst day of schooL?: can't stop - maRoon 5

bReaking up?: good 'oL - jojo

dRiving?: miseRy business - paRamoRe (( i Love Rockin out to this song...! ))

mentaL breakdown?: i need you tonight - backstReet boys (( hehee this woRks ))

fLashback?: how did i faLL in Love with you - backstReet boys (( omg! this woRks 2 ))

getting back togetheR?: its gonna be me - *nsync

biRth of chiLd?: Love stoRy - kat mcphee (( i guess... ))

wedding scene?: Love stoned - justin timbeRLake (( hahaa ok?! ))

death scene?: diRRty pop - nsync (( yeh, no sense ))

funeRaL song?: Lose my bReath - destiny's chiLd (( weLL the titLe fits! LoL ))

end cRedits?: sexyBack - justin timbeRLake (( oh yeah baby!! hehee ))

1 week befoRe i Leave for stupid geRmany...

I reaLLy dont wanna go! I hate airpLanes. but my famiLy bought the stupid tickets so I hafta go. I wish that i didn't have to go. Or better yet, change the destination of the tickets to CaLifoRnia and i'Ll crash at my cousin's house. I'LL take that oveR geRmany any day!

so i had woRk today...and it was sLow as anything...what was cooL was that i was cRaving chocoLate so bad that one of the nuRses gave me a heRshey's chocoLate bar! I was Like how'd u know? LoL so i ate it but then my tummy staRted to huRt. then i ate moRe chocoLate becuz anotheR nuRse made Like this cake things...the chocoLate one was amazing! so deLiciousLy good! =D i aLso had to make copies of this test and stapLe the packets togetheR...i had to make a totaL of 40!! oh weLL it was fun. i kiLLed time so bad. aLL in aLL i had a good day.

it wouLd have been awesome-eR if i wasn't missing my cousins too damn much! idk what it is?! they've been gone foR a week now, i shouLd be Like, yeah i miss them, oh weLL moving with Life. but im not. i am seRiousLy not happy! what the heck is wRong with mee? idk if i'LL get oveR this. on top of that, i keep thinking that i'm botheRing them way too fRiggin much. i even put my aim into auto-sign in. but im weiRd tho...i see them on Righ, but i don't message them because i think they'Re busy. so in that waiting time...i have to Leave and we neveR taLk. this happened yesteRday...we haRdLy even taLked yesteRday...maybe its just mee....maybe im too fRiggin paRanoid that i'm botheRing them too much and pRobabLy im not...they'Re just busy...so idk wheRe i stand! it just ReaLLy sucks now...im not happy as i was befoRe them...i've neveR woRRied about anyone moRe than i do them...idk...i just need to get my haPPyness back because i sweaR, the sun was neveR as bRight as the days they weRe heRe...fa ReaL...

weLL i shouLd be studying...and they just got out of schooL...so yah. idek if we'Re gonna taLk today...i gotta do something to get my mind stRaight because i'm a fRickin wReck....ReaLLy dont wanna go to geRmany...heLP!!!

StReSsiN oUt !!

OMG! I don't know what to do when it comes to schooL! So i'm trying to become a CNA right? My parents teLL me to chaLLenge the test and take it without going thru the program. I try to expLain it to the nursing advisors and they teLL me that i shouLd go thru the program. idk what to do

And i need to take the NAT (Nursing Aptitude test) before June 1 but the Nursing peopLe accept students by rank. and since my grades don't come in tiLL after the deadLine, my rank wiLL be the same and they wiLL not accept me! so if i choose not to take the NAT test i wiLL not be in schooL for another term!

or I couLd the CNA program Like everyone but my parents are teLLing me. that way i'm in schooL going for a working certificate so that i can get paid atLeast!

:: ahhhh!!! ::

They're gone =(

So my cousins left this morning and man was I a wreck! I missed them so much...right when we were hitting it off, they had to get back. I wish I wasn't so shy at first but that's how I am. It seriously felt like I had my not-so-little sisters over for 5 days and had to leave. I love them. We had so much fun staying up all night talking about whatever came to mind. I found that the younger one and I are more alike. Dude I was crying when I came back from dropping them off at the airport. I usually hang out in their room and just lay on the bed while my younger cousin texted away on her SideKick. I didnt give them my contacts stuff beforehand so I let em know thru text, which I have to keep my eye on because I have limited texts on my iPhone. I've already used like 30 text msg. They have unlimited texting. Wish I had that. Atleast I got to know more about them before they left. Basically we were switching out who'd sleep with who that night. I talked about 45min with the older one before she fell deep asleep enjoying my bed and almost pushing me off; and almost 2 hours with the younger one, whom I found out was like me in a few ways: we like math, scare each other easily, and something else. But now its back to the boring life and I really do miss hanging out with them. I swear it felt like they were my sisters for like 5 days and then they had to leave. This was the first time I actually talked with them and understood what they said. The first time they were here they spoke only Tagalog and we just could not communicate. But I was a bad kid back then because I also took somthing from them without asking, a nintendo gameboy. lol idk what made me do that. Things were ok now. I said I was sorry by making them more than 2 dozen chocolate covered strawberries. I hope they forgave me.

Well, their back in Cali and I'm bored. Oh well, as long as they landed safely, I'm good. I got to talk to them and say that its good they got home safely. The thing I didn't do is tell them how bored I was and wished they'd come back. I didn't say that because I heard their dad saying they have to go get their luggage before they lose them. Seemed like they packed for 3 months with all that baggage. Well I let them go and now I'm wishing that I had said that. Just so they know. I can be emoitional sometimes. My mom and my grandma went to the Philippines last March and I cried even tho they'll be back in about 2 weeks.

Atleast, my cousins and I exchanged emails and numbers so we can keep in touch.

Last Day

Tuesday...my cousin who slept with me that night woke up at 5 in the morning and I was laughing at her. I told her how many times she took over my spot. funny. then when we woke up one of my cousin was late to his test so I had to drive him to the place. It was ok. Got to spend time with him a bit...but I really wanted to be back home talking with my cousins from Cali. its ok. we went to 2 outlet malls and we bought Coach bags. we also were being goofy and we bought Dippin Dots ice cream from a Dippin Dots vending machine! lol never seen that before. On the other mall, which was a closed mall, my boyfriend made fun of me so I made fun of him. He said that I was gonna drive right thru the doors of the mall but i wasn't. I was just looking for the entrance so I can park near it. So to him, I embarassed him and made it like he was bad at math. I don't remember what I said but it was funny. so we walked around...seen a knife store...a cheap disney store...and bought candy of course! yay the best part yet it wasn't. For some reason when I bit into my caramel apple, my throat felt weird as if i was allergic to something. the feeling went to my throat and my ears were itching. so I stopped eating apples. then we bought Alvin and Chipmunks dvd. oh my cousins slept while I was driving so I guess that means I'm a good driver. =)
When we came home, I told my boyfriend to go home so that I can spend time with my cousins. He took it the wrong way. I was trying to tell him that if I was with him then I'd be with him rather than with my cousins who're leaving in 10 hours. So I wanted to make every second count spending time with them before they go. Then it turned to an argument so I was just like I'll talk to you later. *click* I spend time with my cousins just like I said I would. I *supervised* them packing, hung out in their room, and then we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks. They loved it! I thought Theodore was so cute. Then we went to "bed." Well the older one slept while me and the younger one just talked and talked and talked. I loved it! Just getting to know them better just makes my day. We talked for 2 hours before they had to get ready for their flight. I gotta tell ya, that was the worst part of their trip: saying goodbye. I don't know if they felt the same way but I wanted them to stay a little bit longer. I swear, these past days were never as sunny and as happy as they ever were when they're not here. I was so excited they were here, I got to spend time with them, it just sucks that time flies when your having fun. and boy did it fly! it seems just a second ago the doorbell rang and there they were. My cousins are the most coolest people I've ever met. Its just so awesome with them around.

Sunday, Disney Day!!!

Omg I was so excited. We took two cars: a borrowed Ford Excursion and my uncle's 08 Nissan Quest. We had 14 people total! Yeah, my boyfriend's immediate family is still bigger. Funny thing is that they're all blood!! Like not including 2nd cousins and all that. Anyway - moving on...I only packed a change of clothes and my money because we were definately riding Splash Mountain. The ride took 2hrs and 38min to get there. I sat with my younger cousin; her sister was in the other car. I didn't know what to say to her so I listened to my iphone (big mistake). I offered her to listen but she didnt want to. I had some cool songs...oh well.

We saw downtown Orlando and international drive, which was basically the gift-shop-go karts-water park-carnival rides-plus hotels district. You could see the Universals theme parks from there. We also could see Sea World along the way. Both parks meant that we were extremely close to the happiest place on Earth!

Finally there, we got the best parking spot: disabled parking! (my grandma came too LOL) I was joking that she should come more often! As usual and just because we're Filipino, we took a crap load of pictures! I didnt mind...I took some with my iPhone as well =) We took the ferry boat to the park...anticipation building up...oh yeah LOL we finally got there and yup, took more pictures and used the bathrooms. My cousins and I broke off and went on our own. They suggested the Fast Pass ticket, so we tried it out.

We went to the Haunted Mansion, Pirates of the Caribbean, Buzz Lightyear ride, Stitch's Great Escape, this blue ride, Thunder Mountain, Space Mountain, and Splash Mountain.
Pirates of the Caribbean was great! It was newly renovated so it had Jack Sparrow in this time. Plus there was a small drop, which I don't remember, but it was still fun. My cousin got scared and grabbed my arm! lol Thunder mountain was a huge let down. I had never been on it so we tried it out. We waited 50min for the worst ride ever! We also did cool rides like this Buzz Lightyear ride which was kinda like the MIB ride in Universal Studios. We also went on this slow ride which was alright. Space Mountain and Splash mountain were the best ever! cuz we did Fast Pass on them, so no wait. We also rode the Snow White and Peter Pan rides in FantasyLand to kill time in between Fast Pass return times.

I had so much fun with my cousins. The most fun I've had yet at Disney World! It was the greatest vacation ever. I bought a Pirate Princess Minney ears hat that even had its own earing and jewelry. My brother got one but mine was better. I also bought a coffee mug for my boyfriend. My cousins bought stuff for their friends and stuff for themselves.

For dinner we ate at Perkins. It was like a homestyle food restaurant. My baby cousin was crying so loud everyone was staring! And of couse, I had a blast with my cousins! They're just so fun to be around with. I knew I was gonna miss them a whole lot once they're gone. SO I tried to make the best out of ever second we spent together. Last time I saw them, I couldn't understand them nor could they understand be and I stole their gameboy. These days sorta made up for lost times and a whole lotta sorries.

We drove back with my two cousins in my car and we just slept. back home we were out! lol

6 days of Family Fun

4:03am and I can't sleep. Mainly because my cousin is sleeping next to me and she kinda kicked me. LOL its ok I'm good. Anyway, I have family over in San Fran CA and they came down here for their spring break. I have to be honest; I was kinda shy at first because I didnt know what to talk about with them. Now I know it doesn't matter. Just talk about whatever comes to mind. That's basically me. Now they're leaving day after tomoro and I plan for tomoro to be absatively posilutely awesomely fantastic before they leave. My boyfriend is bringing our dog for them to see and supposedly "Cloverfield" will be on DVD tomoro so we'll watch that. And if anything comes up, we'll do it. I might make chocolate covered strawberries again. Hmmm...I think I will.

Anyway, Thursday, the first day they were here, we went to go pick up my brother from school. I asked if they wanted to come and of course parents insisted they go so that we can talk. So we went. It was so quiet in the car. I didnt know what to ask because they had just come from the airport like an hour ago and maybe they were tired or something and wanted to rest. When we came back, they unpacked and hung out. My other family who lives near me came over too and the same time that day we went to the town center (aka mall). Awkward silences again. Came back and I played video games.

Friday, I made breakfast. They loved it! (well I hope) I made scrambled eggs with cheese; it was pretty good if I do say so myself. Forgot what we did that morning but in the afternoon we took family photos at this studio. No wait! It was today when we went to the town center (aka mall). I remember because I had drove twice to that place. We went to their favorite store, Juicy Couture, and I bought ice cream because for some reason it got really hot. Anyway, back to the family photos...I found this awesome parking spot but I didnt take it because I was afraid that if I backed out of it, I'd clip another car's bumper. I had already done that in school. I didn't wanna relive (or repay for that matter) again so I parked on the backside. We took some awesome shots! And they turned out even more awesome!! Afterwards, my boyfriend came to meet them then we treated them out to a movie. We watched "Horton Hears a Who." That movie was so funny!! I was cracking up yo!! LOL gotta go see it. Then came home to sleep.

Saturday...hmmm...what'd we do?? Oh yeah the beach! The most memorable moment was me falling on my bum many times with that skim board! My cousin tried it but she fell a couple times too. I'm really determined to learn how to skim board; I wanna go to the beach again! It was so much fun. I wanted to pick up our dog, Elmo, but it was out of the way. I think after we had a family dinner and watched the Kid's Choice Awards then just hung out and rested because tomoro we were going to Disney World yay!!!! =) I managed to score a conversation with my younger cousin on the drive back home. We talked about anything that came to mind.

Sunday...Disney World! (more on this later)

Monday...My boyfriend stopped by and we went to the town center to go to Juicy Couture. My mom spent money on them today. I went to buy a Hollister jacket because it was cold that day and I didn't have a jacket. =) then we just walked around. After, we stopped by my kuya's house and my cousin played his electric drum set and she was awesome by the way! go girl! lol I tried but I couldn't. Then we went to Dave & Busters for a night of "After Dark Power Hour." I didn't know that it was an hour long. I just thought that "Power Hour" was just a catchy name. It was alright, I mean I wouldn't come back to do it. Probably to just stick with one ticket game.
Then we got Arby's for dinner and watched Family Guy. then sleepy time.

*Monday Night...my older cousin, my other cousin and I had a little sleep over in my room that night. My older cousin was on my bed, the other on th floor. Well, before we slept, I was talking to my older cousin about anything that came to mind and I asked her if she moves while she sleeps, she was like yea I kinda do. and I jokingly said oh God! lol but I didn't think she'd move alot like she did. She was on the right side and I was on the left. So were laying straight as first then she starting moving. Slowly and slowly she was taking up my side of the bed. Finally she was diagonal on the bed and I was forced to move to the other side! lol I didn't have any blanket either...she had it all! so I was curled up in a little ball and just had my Hollister jacket to keep me warm. oh well. then she moved back to her side and I got up and moved again too. it was really weird but a funny experience. one of the most memorable moments of their time here.

Last day..(more on this later.)